NaNoWriMo Update And A Change of Heart

November 18, 2007 · Filed under blogging, nanowrimo, writing · Tagged achievement, cardiogirl, inspiration, nanowrimo

I’m having a great time now on my NaNoWriMo novel.  Things keep hitting me and I’ve spent a lot of time over the last week getting that wordcount nice and high.  I’m most likely going to reach 50k in the next day or so.  I’m on (hopefully unless I change my mind again) the last part of the story, the finale.  Then for the rest of the month I’ll be going back through it and adding all the stuff I need to add in for the ending to make any sense whatsoever.  It’s funny how what started as nothing suddenly grabbed my attention and forced me to go with it.  It’s complete shite but I feel great that I’m actually going to finish something.

 I’ve never finished anything.  I have lots of ideas, I start lots of things but I can never keep the momentum and my interest going long enough to complete anything.  It may not seem like a big thing to any of you but to me, this is major!  I’ve finally proved to myself that I can make time for my own thing even with two blogs and all of the reviewing I take on, not to mention the family.  And I didn’t just make time, I can manage to finish things.  If you knew me really, you would be as astounded as me, trust me. 

I know I’m never going to be a “real” writer as in get a book published but I’ve achieved a little personal progress so that’s okay by me.  Sometimes I get frustrated and want to give up on everything.  Last night I was literally about to delete my blogs and my bebo page and all of my writing and go hide away.  I get like that sometimes but today I’m determined to be a little bit more…cheerful and be proud of things that mean something to me – hence this post.  Again, blame Cardiogirl for her latest post, it gave me a little pause and made me think about some things a bit differently.  Besides, I’d miss bugging people like her if I fecked off.   🙂