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Hello December, Bye Bye Things To Do

Welcome to December the 1st.  November is gone, far, far away.  NaBloPoMo is over.  NaNoWriMo is over.   I finally got sleep last night!  Apparently I had to be air lifted to bed at 9 o’clock but I remember nothing.  Let’s just say November finally caught up on me.  I think I posted everyday although I could be wrong.  And I definitely got past 50k on my NaNo novel…including the 5k that little man lost on me yesterday.   *Grumbles quietly to self*

So now what?  I’m at a loss.  I’ve been so used to getting up with a plan that now I don’t know what to be doing.  And what I did before doesn’t seem fun anymore.  Hmm….

I even found myself looking out for other things to take on throughout December.  Because Christmas isn’t enough for me…:/

Oh, I did fail something actually.  I failed my November Reading Challenge miserably.  I was supposed to read three books set during a World War.  I started to read Band of Brothers which is really good by the way but everytime I tried to read it, I started to think about my NaNo novel so lets just say it didn’t go very far.    Maybe I’ll try and do it this month.  If a certain book arrives this month, I may even get to take part in the book club on blogcatalog. 

So now it’s December, which means I can no longer ignore Christmas and I’ve been thinking about the new year.  Yesterday, I sort of decided to make another blog or else incorporate what I’m doing into the other blog I already have.  You may have noticed that I love to write, but I’ve never tried to get published…yet I give other people advice on writing.  So that doesn’t really make much sense.  I wondered how I could be of use to people that are trying to get published.  I’m including short stories, poetry, open letters, all forms of writing in that. 

 It’s kind of a stupid idea but I sort of thought about having a year long challenge where I try to get things published online and in print and let people know how it goes, if I get a response, if that response is personal, how long it took, that kind of thing.  Then at the end of the year, I could stop and be like well, I tried, now I can write for fun and forget about anything else.   I could even invite other people to give their stories along the way.  I don’t know.  I feel like I need a plan for a change.  This way, I would have an excuse to keep writing a lot 😉

I used to do a little bit of freelance writing online and although I enjoyed it, I craved fiction.  But I gave it up because of problems with Internet connectivity.  Since then, I’ve felt like something was missing, I’ve tried to fill it with my other blog but it didn’t really do the job.  It made the feeling that I was missing out even stronger.  NaNoWriMo sort of filled the void a little.  So this new idea is my solution or resolution for next year if it still sounds like a good idea by January.  😉

So, what are your plans for next year if any?  Do you make New Year Resolutions?  I think this will be my first one if it’s feasible!

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Mistakes and Stories

Still sick, still cranky 🙂

I’m not enjoying this so much anymore, maybe a personal blog just isn’t for me.  Maybe blogging isn’t for me.  I make the same mistakes a lot.  That’s probably why I made a second blog 🙂  I tend to do that in all areas of my life.  Repeat the same mistakes, such as trusting people that I shouldn’t.  People that don’t deserve it.  I tend to not realise what I’m doing til after the job is done as it were.  But I suppose that could be classed as a mistake too.  I have a really bad habit of only seeing the good sides in people.  It’s sort of life fooling myself but not completely because all along, deep down, I know what they’re really like.  In fact, I don’t generally trust people overall, but when I do, I trust too much and I’m nearly always mistaken.

I worry about the sort of personality I have.  What is it that attracts me to people who are not so nice, what is it that makes me turn a blind eye to the worst type of people?  I’m like one of those women that always end up with abusive men, except with me it’s friends 🙂

Seriously, it sounds kind of odd even as I’m writing it but my whole life, I’ve been the same.  It’s part of why I don’t find it easy to trust people in general…I trust the wrong sort of people too easily.  I’m the one who gives of myself and I’m the one who always gets hurt.  Although when it comes down to it, maybe I’m the same sort of person myself.  I can hurt when I want to, I’m not completely defenseless after all.  But I don’t hurt for nothing.  I only hurt…back.  I think I’m using this blog as a way to vent how I’m feeling at the time, that’s why my blogs tend to veer from hyper to depressed, I think.

So, my blog reminds me of bad things and maybe that’s why I’m not so keen of it anymore.  I suppose that looking back hurts in a way.  I tend to be quite vague about how I’m feeling.  I generalise, don’t give that many details so in essence it could be a million and one things that are bothering me.  I like to hold back a bit so I don’t give out the whole story but maybe I should.  It might help.  It might not so blah.  🙂

I write.  I’m not a good writer by any stretch of the term but I still write nonetheless.  Isn’t that wierd?  I’m the type of person that feels like if I’m not the best, I stop. What’s the point if I’m not the best?  I used to be quite musical, I even played the clarinet amongst other things.  I loved it, I mean really loved it, it was one thing I loved doing above anything else.  But.  Big but.  I was forced to take part in a sort of mess competition, nothing serious, just amongst others in my class.  It wasn’t even for the clarinet.  But I don’t take tests well.  I’m just not physically able to perform well in exams.  So this is what happened.  And I gave up every single instrument I played.  Just stopped.  And that was it. 

That’s sort of the way I am with people.  I just…stop.  And that’s it.  They don’t exist in my world anymore.  They are no longer good enough to be on my radar.  That sounds really wierd but in my head it isn’t like that.  They’re just gone, and that’s it.  No getting back from that.  The one thing I’m not like that about is writing.  I’ll never be a great writer, I’ll never be a good writer but it’s something I still enjoy doing.  I’m still trying to work that one out.  Why is that the one thing that bypasses my unspoken rules? 

I have no idea, maybe I’m mad eccentric but whatever, it works for me so why change the habit of a lifetime, right?  Right?  No?  Shut up…. 🙂

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November 3rd

Ah, yes, day three and I’m already behind my wordcount on NaNoWriMo.  Things seem to be crazy hectic and instead of actually tackling everything that needs to be done, I’m sitting around panicking about it instead.  I can see myself sitting up all night, living on lattes and lucozade, during the last week, scribbling away frantically.  When I say things like that, I always imagine Jo out of Little Women with that hat she wore – I thought I was most like Jo by the way 🙂

So, yeah, back to me being behind…The fact that the NaNoWriMo site is a bit slow and hard to navigate this year isn’t really helping nor is my crappy Broadband connection  because I keep wasting lots of times trying to find things and waiting for pages to load up.  I quite like pressure though, I’m pretty sure I’ll hit 50,000 words if I don’t give up for some reason.

It’s now 4am, I’ve been up blogging for the last hour – well, I was reading something I was supposed to review on my other blog for most of that.  How am I supposed to stay awake, take care of two blogs, keep in touch with my online buddies, play with two children all day, remember to eat and drink, write a novel and read new writing work to review?  I must be freaking insane.  This last week, Mr. Claire has had some time off work so I’ve been able to sleep during the day and stay up late at night (this is the way my body likes to work) but he’s back in work in the morning and I’m going to be exhausted because I’m up for the night now.  Gerry Adams (Sinn Fein) is doing a book signing or some such nonsense in Mr. Claire’s place of work so he has to be around for it – he already told me there’s no point begging for him to stay home or go to work late tomorrow, damnit!  I told him to tell Gerry Adams to sort out his TD’s, they’re getting as bad as Bertie fecking Aherne and his laughable party, Fine Fail at getting back to people (and helping them). 

Not quite sure how I ended up on a political rant but isn’t it disgraceful when your own country’s elections arise and you don’t have a clue who to vote for.  Not because it’s hard to choose who will be better but because you have to make damn well sure that you don’t pick the worst one.  Slim pickings for politicians in Ireland at the moment, not sure if there is one decent one between all of the parties.  Fine Fail are in charge at the moment and kicking them outta there is long overdue.  Between disgraceful looking monuments that cost millions and hospitals with more administrative staff than nurses and doctors, it’s all going to the dogs.  Crime, especially gun crime and gangland type of stuff is just getting ridiculous now.  Don’t get me started on my pet peeve – lack of adequate housing.  Actually I really don’t have time to get into it all right now, I have some novel writing to be struggling over so I’m going to kick on now – enjoy your day 🙂

Just one last thing, I still don’t have a title for my Nano work so if anyone has any suggestions, I would be loving dem, schwoar 😉

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First NaNoWriMo Update

The one week when I really need Internet connection and my service provider stops providing.  I’ve been looking out for a better one but I need a utility bill and I can’t seem to find one so I’m going to have to wait til the next one arrives.  Never looked forward to a bill before 🙂

So, NaNoWriMo finally started.  For the first three hours or so I tried to avoid it but eventually I couldn’t think of anything else to do that would help me put it off so I got down to it.  I’ve no idea if I can drag it out to 50,000 words but here’s hoping!  I decided to definitely aim it at younger readers.  I think that broadened out the themes for me a fair bit. 

I had no plot or anything, just this paragraph that appeared pretty much out of nowhere.   

“They need to know the truth, Jasmine.”

 

“No, they’re too young; they don’t need to know anything yet.”

 

Elvira shook her head in disbelief.     “You don’t ever plan on telling them do you?”

 

“Mother, they’re my children.     What I say goes and I want them to have normal lives.”

 

“Oh, yes, so normal, that their father has disappeared without a trace, they’re mother is denying them their heritage and their only grandmother is forbidden from telling them the truth about anything!”

 

Jasmine held out her hand, “I don’t want to hear anymore about it, mother.     I say no, and that’s the end of it.”

 

Elvira almost snarled.    “You have no right and when they do find out the truth, which they will because they’re bright children, they will never forgive you!    Just like I won’t!”

 

With that, Elvira clicked her fingers and disappeared in a flash of light.    Jasmine rolled her eyes, “Show off.”     Elvira never saw her daughter again.

That’s my excerpt, my plot, my storyline, everything I had 🙂  I thought it was vague enough to bring me anywhere and it seems to be.  I wrote over 2,000 words yesterday and I feel like I haven’t even started yet.  As I said before, expecting utter crap is quite liberating, I’m really enjoying it.  I’ve an overload of ideas at the moment from witches to dream catchers to moving wallpaper, my inner child is having a great time.

On a personal note, my son drew an excellent picture of a carrot and the number 5 (without prompting – it was a look at what I did Mammy moment) which was great.  The building two doors down went on fire last night, which was baaaaaad.  I can’t get the smell of burning out of my nostrils which is adding to the sudden fire paranoia I developed last night.  Five fire brigades outside your home doesn’t exactly bode well for a good night’s sleep.  Hopefully, the damage wasn’t too bad and nobody was hurt but I haven’t heard anything about that yet.  Hope you all had a good week and are expecting a great weekend.  I’m off to melt my head with more NaNoWriMo crap 🙂

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NaBloPoMo and NaNoWriMo Time

Hope you all had a great Halloween no matter what you did…

 The clock has past midnight so we are officially in NaNoWriMo and NaBloPoMo Time now.  I did sign up for both – in case you don’t know, NaBloPoMo is like a blogging version of NaNoWriMo,  you must blog every day during November.  I decided it would be easy because I could update about my experiences with NaNoWriMo if I didn’t have anything to write 🙂

I’ve finally settled on a vague idea for NaNoWriMo…and the idea seems to be gearing for a younger audience everytime I consider it.  I quite like the idea that it is expected of you to write a pile of crap, takes a bit of the pressure out of things! 

I’m not going into my idea because I am likely to change it by the time I actually sit down to write so it will probably be a surprise to even me.  I’m quite excited about it, I’m waiting for my new laptop charger to arrive so I will actually be able to type in bed if I can’t sleep instead of sitting up all night and getting a stiff back.  As I have mentioned before, I have two pre-schoolers so it will be quite difficult to find the time to type other than during the night.  I really don’t know how novelists with families find the time, I’m most impressed – managing my time well is really not my strong point. 

Come the end of November, I will probably have bald patches from tearing my hair out, black bags under my eyes from sleep deprivation and have eerily pale skin from a lack of exposure to sunlight.  That’s pretty much what I’m looking like right now to be honest but hopefully by then I’ll actually have an excuse for it and maybe even feel like I can call myself a writer without feeling like an imposter.

Good luck to everyone who is taking part in either of these events this year.  My user name is clairec23 on both if anyone is passing by and wants to say hello!

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NaNoWriMo

How DO you pronounce that???

 I decided last year to take part in NaNoWriMo, but I forgot so this year I’m determined to get started on the 1st of November.  My only problem now is coming up with some ideas.  I was going to blog about my progress on my other blog Bebo Author, – which is playing up a lot lately since I decided to try out a custom domain – but why clog up that when I could do it here 🙂

 I love to write, I have a lot of stuff in my head and the easiest way to get it out is to write it down but I have the very bad habit of procrastinating and putting it off for another day.  I’m hoping that being forced to write 1500 or 1600 words a day will discipline me to actually get things done in the future.  I have a lot of half finished stories because I was too lazy to type them up then forgot key facts and was too lazy to go back and read it all over to make sure I had my details right. 

 One story in particular is very strong in my head (I have the whole lot of it worked out, I just need to type up the second half of it) but I can’t use that for NaNoWriMo because  you have to start from scratch.  That book was aimed at young adults (think Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight minus the vampires) and that just fell into place so maybe thats the type of thing I should try again.

If anyone is taking part, it’s starting in about 4 days so I’ll see you there 🙂

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